How long will it take?
I don’t want to be alone but it’s like you aren’t giving me much of a choice. I reserved my heart just for you, I changed who I was just to please you but I guess it wasn’t enough. I really thought you were perfect for me. Oh how silly I must have seemed.
There is no such thing as a perfect boyfriend because there is no human being who is perfect. Even I’m not perfect but I tried to make your dreams of perfection come true. There is a reason why I fell in love with the name Camula and why I made Camgal my brand name before I met you and now that you’re gone it dominates me.
I chose her out of all the characters because of her strength and focus. I thought you would understand me better when I told you all this but it seems you were further away from understanding me. I needed you to reason with me, understand my methods and manner of thinking, I didn’t want to leave you to figure me out.
I tried my best. I really did. I have seen the failings and you really failed me. My efforts were in vain. How very futile. All I want to know is, ‘How long will it take to make you understand?’.